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People on social media sites
tend to glorify things that hurt.
They brag about things
that people struggle with.

Mental illness is not a label.
It is not a badge nor a privilege
or something you have to earn.

People suffer,
they battle voices in their heads
that they do not even recognize.

People struggle to tame
their inner demons
and keep up an image
that the world expects them to uphold.

Mental illness is not cute,
being so anxious you cannot speak is not a quirk.
Relying on people to take care of you is not romantic.

News flash!
Your life is not an episode of Skins
The idea of Effy and Freddie is fictional,
no one is going to save you.

We go home and muffle our cries
while dragging razors across our wrists
chasing pills with bottles of vodka.

Our thoughts turn on us
Like a loaded gun,
and we are stuck forever
in a game of Russian roulette.

We wear long sleeves,
and try to drown out voices with headphones.
We tremble at the thought of giving up the chemicals
we have become dependent on.

People write poems about suicide
and death like it's beautiful,
but your death is not an after party.
You won't be happier, you'll be nonexistent.

You are not Amanda Todd or Olivia.
You won't be remembered forever.
The people who kept you in their memory will die out
and no tongue will ever again taste the sound of your name.

People won't sell your thoughts or your words
no one will think they should have listened.
They will think they should have spoke
And even then they will be told they couldn't have saved you.

There is nothing romantic about waking up
in a hospital bed after your fifth suicide attempt
with no one holding your hand.

No one will feel bad for you when you need stitches
because this time you cut too deep,
or when you have a seizure because you overdosed
...again.

No one will stroke your hair or cradle you
and proceed to kiss it all better.
You'll learn to survive on your own.

So this is for everyone with ADHD,
who gets told they aren't suffering
they are just hyper.

Because no one knows that your'e up all night
doing homework that took everyone else 5 minutes
or that your medication makes you feel like you have no energy.
No one knows the hours that go into tutoring because no matter how hard you tried
you couldn't pay attention during a block scheduled class.

This is for my schizophrenic best friend
who has to hide his illness from his own mom
because he is afraid to disappoint her.

Because she would not understand
that the voices don't sleep
or that you struggle to maintain friendships sometimes.
That even in your sleep your hands find their way to blades,
and you sometimes wake up to bloody sheets.

This is for the victims of bipolar disorder,
who get told they're just being bitchy,
or asked if it's their time of the month.

No one knows how often you and your best friend fight,
because you go from depressed to manic before you can finish a thought.
Or that you cut your beautiful wrists in your bathroom at night
wishing you'd had the courage to go just a little deeper.

This is for everyone struggling with Anorexia,
who get told it's just a phase
or that they aren't even fat.

I know no one sees the distorted vision of that gorgeous body
that you spit on when you look in the mirror.
People don't realize that however irrational
you believe one touch of bad food will make you instantly fat.

This is for my boyfriend,
who also struggles with borderline personality
and is scared he will never find a place in society.

I know how it feels to plaster on the emotion you think is correct,
to learn moods and behaviors to appear more normal.
I know how the voices can be overwhelming
and make you second guess your every decision.

People think these things are labels,
or they are something to wear with pride
and to advertise to the world.

This is not a fad or a trend,
we will not get over this.
It's not a matter of dropping the act.
Stop promoting it like it is.
My friend Berto picked the title, he admired me skins reference.

CRITIQUES APPRECIATED (:

It really upsets me that I have to write this but please do not send me any hate for writing this. I have received comments on the poem, on my page and notes. The poem IS NOT saying people with mental illness boast about it it is saying people who say they have something wrong when they don't do. There are over 200 hundred comments on this poem all from people who understood that, so for the few that don't- well there it is.
If you dislike it fine, it was a blunt truth, but do not degrade me or put me down due to my art. I don't do it to any of you.

For those of you who have been encouraging and lovely and supportive, thank you. ^ That was not directed at you (:


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Your life is not a British television show by HecticHarmony supports what is often glossed over and glamourised. Also Suggested by: Shady-Lady90 ( Suggested by darksapphiredrop and Featured by GrimFace242 )
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A-Panda-Girl Featured By Owner May 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That was beautiful.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankyou. (:
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rauhlthemLevi Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh God, this makes me cry every time i read it, I always thought that I go through this by myself, that no one knows what it feels like, you seriously changed the way I look at things, I wish i could thank you personally for this writing.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad that my writting touches people in the way it touched you.
Thankyou for your kindness. *hugs you and pets your hair*

It'll be okay my little lilac blossom. If you ever need anything I am here for you.
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TheMetaPony Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014
I love this. I keep saying myself that ADHD isn't a real mental illness it's just a way for doctors to get money.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
ADHD is a real illness..
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TheMetaPony Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014
Then tell me oh wise one, is the drug for this so called illness worth these symptoms?   www.childmind.org/en/posts/art…
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fruittella94 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014
Please, don't be so bloody rude and patronising. It's not clever and frankly, not needed. 

Don't paint everyone with the same brush, just because you've read something on-line, doesn't mean it applies to everyone. How gullible could someone be? 

Medication can seriously help someone, take it from experience, so just because you've sat on your arse and Googled something, doesn't mean you're right. Now, by all means I'm not saying everyone has to type extremely nice comments on here and make the girl feel super happy with herself, because by all means, people should be allowed to voice their opinions, but you know, have a bit of respect and make it constructive criticism, rather than blatant, unneeded abuse.  

Also, this clearly wasn't directed at everyone, just a few narrow minded individuals, who wouldn't know how to accept something different to their beliefs if it jumped up and roundhoused kicked them in the face.  
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Ya okay number 1 I am really tired of being criticized over this freaking poem by people WHO COMPLETELY MISSED THE POINT!!
If you have nothing nice to say simply don't say anything. Don't be all sarcastic and like oh wise one just because you don't like my poem.

Also nowhere in that poem did I say people needed nor should be on medication. I simply explained in one part how medication could make someone feel (from experience by the way) and actually pretty much made the point you are throwing at me that meds make ppl feel shitty sometimes. And "so called illness" are you kidding me?!? Do you know how many people you probably offended just now by minimizing what they go through because it is something you don't think is right?

But as a psychology major let me state, not all meds do that and medication alone is not a fic but medication saves lives. So please go take your criticism and ignorance elsewhere. Please.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
And you not liking a medication doesn't mean ADHD isn't an illness. Ppl don't like chemo it makes them feel like shit but it saves lives doesn't it? And it doesn't mean cancer isn't real. 
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