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I want to tell a story,
but this story isn't a fairy tale
and it wont have a happy ending,
because the real ones, well
they never really do.


In high school
I picked up my pen
and I began to write
about love.
It existed and it was pure
and it was lovely.


But my rapist rewrote me.
breathing on my neck
and tracing my back with his fingers.
He rewrote me as broken.
He wrote me as a statistic,
as another white girl who got told
that she cried rape for attention.


But that didn't matter because see,
I wanted to tell a story.
A story about family,
about picking each other up
about blood being thicker than water
about how not everyone's home
had to be broken.


But my father rewrote me.
When i picked up my pen
he spoke words to me
that I swear bruised my whole body
and I learned that nothing
was thicker than his alcohol
and my home was already shattered.


But I wanted to tell a story.
so I picked up my pen
to write about god.
A God that could save anybody
And God loved everybody,
which was the only thing I craved.


But my best friend rewrote me
when She told me I was toxic and
that God only loves those
who love the right people,
and I got writers block
because I didn't understand
that love could ever be wrong.


So after awhile I decided
that i wanted to tell a story,
but this time i picked up a razor
to unwrite all the things
that everyone else had;
the alcohol and the rape,
the abandonment,
the brokeness.


I wanted to tell a story.
I wanted to tell my story.
So I sat in my bathroom
night after night
writting about loneliness
perfection, ignorance,
arrogance, love.


See I told my story.
My story was painful
and misunderstood
because no one took time
to read it, but now,
people would read me
everytime they look at my scarred body.


My story is in the scars on my thighs
that he caressed like he owned
while I was tied to his bed
with my own leggings.


I told my story with scars on my wrist
the day my father grabbed me
and put me against our back door
with his fingers around my neck.


I told my story with scars on my stomach
after my grandmother disowned me
and my mother told me if i tried hard enough
I wouldn't love women.


My body see, It tells a story.
A story that is frequently displayed
for everyone to read.


You see when people write
they make themselves vulnerable, they open up
to the shit world they live in to share a piece of them
but they can hide behind a book cover
or an anonymous name.


They wrote with pens but me,
I wrote with a razor blade.
See, i have made myself vulnerable.
I am my own book cover,
and you know how the saying goes
well they judge me by the way I look.


I wanted to tell a story, and I did.
But no one reads it.
All they see is scars.
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:iconjmdbinkee:
jmdbinkee Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Your story/poem has touched me.  My heart is sad for you but each day is a different and hopefully happier and brighter chapter for your story
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theshipperoflove Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is absolutely beautiful yet sad. I am so very sorry this happened to you. 
The way things were worded was amazing and very awe-inspiring. Definitely keep writing these.
A very good read! *hugs* :tighthug:
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RoamingShadow Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
That was quite possibly one of the most heartbreaking things I've ever read... and it was beautiful. Before anything else, I need to praise you for having the strength to not only write down such overwhelming emotions, but managing to organize so many harsh and painful thoughts into an amazing poem. You not only told your story, but you did it so well. Here, a hug :hug:

Perhaps if there's anything that I was bothered by, it was your use of the word unwrite, but maybe that's just me. It didn't seem the the one. Maybe consider finding a synonym for erase, strike or edit. That aside, I don't think anything else needs to be reworded in this piece. Your metaphor on "writing down" a story and how each person "rewrote" you is a wonderful and fits perfectly works wonderfully with your theme of wanting to tell a story. You're very direct here, and I love that. You don't attempt to add in too flowery or complicated language that disrupts the piece's tone. And that ending! Reading the title, I sort of expected that it would be dropped somewhere in the poem. While I expected it, it didn't take away any of it's impact.
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checker-print-ties Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2014  Student Writer
Brought tears to my eyes.
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BrooklynTux Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Professional General Artist
Deep.  Good read.  Thank you for the strength you have in opening up <3
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you (:
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missmerder1990 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Student Artist
im so sorry this happened to you.  i know it must get over wellming a lot. but, thank you for wrighting this. i thnk it opened a lot of eyes. you are an amayzing wrighter.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankyou, that was the goal. I appreciate the comment (: :tithug: 
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missmerder1990 Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Student Artist
no problem! Huggle! 
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Art-lover221 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014
Really Sad  That was the most sad and also kinda beautiful poem I've ever read and it's just really heartbreaking you are a great writer.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. Huggle! 
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Art-lover221 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014
:)
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ApparitionRaid Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
*Grabs hands softly* Listen to me, there will always be someone to turn to no matter what the circumstances. *Begins to cry* Let no one but yourself tell you what you are. You are beautiful, strong, and compassionate. Everything that I just read speaks to me. It touched my heart. More than anything else could. No matter what happens people will be there to listen. Even me.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That was lovely of you to say.
Thank you. I'm sorry I made you cry.
You are very sweet. *kisses your cheek*
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ApparitionRaid Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you Um And also thank you, for the watch and other things :)
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem (:
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Narsilia Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm crying right now.
This wakes memories...
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry. It'll be okay love, *hugs you and strokes your hair*
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:iconnarsilia:
Narsilia Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's alright... just been horribly sensitive over the last days *hugs*
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MaskedArmada Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014
Perfect. Hit a note. I love it.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou (:
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Ilovedrawingpeople12 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*hugs you tightly* this is amazing.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankyou (: I appreciate it.
It was a hard one for me /:
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Ilovedrawingpeople12 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm sorry. *hugs you tightly* I'm here if you want to talk. I'm not a pro like you. but I'll still listen and try to help.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm not a pro either. Not yet anyways (:
Thankyou. Huggle! 
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Ilovedrawingpeople12 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Huggle!  no problem love. I'd enjoy it if you'd check out my art.Heart - Free 
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ForgottenFears Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
This is such a beautiful poem. Dark, haunting, revealing a side of things that society would rather us all believe doesn't exist, but beautiful.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou. (:
I appreciate your feedback. (:
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ForgottenFears Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014
I'm glad. I look forward to reading more of your work in the future.
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Dracosphere Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so powerful. 
You are amazing. 
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou doll. I appreciate it (:
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Dracosphere Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome!
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dreamerday99 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
Very powerful.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankyou (:
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WiccanWT Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Very amazing emotional write.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou :3 
That one was difficult for me.
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WiccanWT Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I very much imagine so, but it is beautiful. Hits close to home
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freakgirlMATT Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014
This is a powerful and hard-hitting poem. I barely read anything that can bring me to the edge of tears, but this can.
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thankyou my love, I appreciate it (:
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Sageoftwilight56 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Your writing is so powerful and beautiful. It makes me feel loved and understood, thank you. I think I have to watch you now. :)
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HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwuh thankyou (: :3
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Sageoftwilight56 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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Aurora66 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014
I'm speechless. It would be lying to say that I understand, but still I can't remember the last time I read something so powerful.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou :3
That made me smile.
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SereneDash Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is really beautiful, your writing really is amazing. When my friend asks why do I cut, I don't say it's for the relief or pain, it's to remind myself what I've done and where I've been.
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thankyou. Every scar has a story, the may not all be happy, or stories that need to be told, but they're there, just the same. 
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SereneDash Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome
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KittyKat708 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014
this is so beautiful and emotional and sad. I know it doesn't mean anything, but I'm sorry you had to go through shit like that. you're an amazing writer, don't stop. Here, have a hug :hug: 
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:iconhecticharmony:
HecticHarmony Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
It means everything, don't discredit yourself. (:
Thankyou I appreciate it (:
Glomp! 
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DarkLover33 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014   Writer
omg this is so sad and beautiful! this has really touched my soul
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